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As I read today’s devotion, all I can think about his how far I have to go. It isn’t a depressing feeling, just a feeling like I’m on a journey and just turned the corner to get our of our neighborhood.

“Learn to listen to Me even while you are listening to other people.”

Then she goes on talks about having His Spirit inside of me to help me respond accordingly. Ask Christ to think through me, live through me, love through me. Respond to others’ needs through the empowerment of the Spirit.

I’m not sure about you guys, but when I listen to people, I do not think about listening to the Spirit, or listening to Christ. Therefore, I feel like I have so far to go.

I’m not saying that I disagree with Sarah at all. I believe that what she is saying is not only helpful for Christ to live through us, but necessary. I have to get to the point where I’m in tune with Christ and the Spirit, I receive continually from Him.

I’m not serious enough about this endeavor, I feel. I’m still worrying about my current task list too much, concerned about my needs and desires.

I have so many things to be thankful for! I could list them for a long time, but here are some:

  • Marriage – Tam and I have our issues at times, but over the last 23 years, there has never been talk about separating or the big “d” word. She is my best friend, and I am her’s. We enjoy each other and generally get along great.
  • Kids – I have 4 kids that love God, make very good decisions and are generally level-minded people. What more could a parent ask for?
  • Job security – I know that things change, but at least for now, my businesses are rolling along quite smoothly. The guys working for me are really good, and work looks promising for at least a couple years.
  • Health – I could run more, but for the first time in probably over 5 years, I’m under 200 lbs. Running manages stress for me, the weight is just an added benefit.
Why am I not seeking Him more in my life? I wish I could answer that question. I feel like I’m just coasting through things daily, just doing the same thing and wondering when things will get better with my connection to Christ.  It won’t! I need to make changes in my daily life that promote the Spirit to be more present in my conscious daily. It will not just happen.
This is a wakeup call for me. Will I do anything about it? Honestly, not today. My task list is so long today, it makes my head spin. I’ll print out today’s devotion and read it through the day; hopefully it will make an impact in my heart and change will happen.